Break.......up!!!!!!!!!!!!??????

pal ye pal wo pal ata jata hai...
thodi khusia thoda gam de jata hai
ye jo dil hai ye to bus dil hai
na hona ho jo wo v ho jata hai.....

Besak zindgi me ups and down chalta rehta hai...aaj 2pal li khusi hai to kal 2 pal ka gam hona lajmi hai...but is tarike se aisa nahi socha tha
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its 12december...babu said me that c is going to cafe..main us din jnu ja raha tha kuch kam se to pahle maine mana kar dia maine kuch socha v nahi aur mana kar dia...iske pichhe ek wajah aur v thi ki mai babu ko le k thoda unsecure feel karta tha..ye ek normal behave hota hai ladko me..aisa mere v sath tha kyoki babu k ladke kuch dost the ..aur mujhe to ye v pata tha ki unme se ek ladka amit kolkata ka rehne wala tha jisne babu ko purpose v kia tha..to aisa pata tha to mere dimag me boht batey chalti rehti halaki mai galat tha...galat tha kyoki mere dimag me bekar ki baat ati...kahi maine babu ko kho dia to..
so maine babu ko cafe jane se mana kar dia tha...pura din hum isi topic pe ladte rahe ki maine use kyo jane nahi dia...mai kahta tha ki apko jane ki kya jarurat hai ...aur wo bolti jana hai...waise wo net pe jati v thi to amit se online baat karti thi ye wajah mujhe use jane nahi de raha tha.finally thoda sulah hua he tha ..
fir...
fir............
mujhe jnu jana tha to mai socha ki ab sab kuch normal ho chuka hai..but i was wrong...things were same kam ya jyada kamowes waisa he sab kuch tha...pura din jab v baat ki to pyar missing laga...mai galat tha muje is kadar possessive nahi hona chahiye tha..saam ko mai jab baat kar raha tha to maine babu ko bola ya to 15sms roj kijiye ya mahine me ek do bar aap 30min baat kar lia kijiye agar apka dost hai to..thodi behas hui thi fir sab kuch normal ho gaya..maine phn rakh dia kyoki babu ne bola ki use khana khane jana hai...raat k 9bajne ko the aur is tym pe khana khane ka tym ho jata hai...mere dil me kuch tha jo mai us din maine phn rakhne k baad wapis call kia to phn waiting pe ja raha tha...aur kuch min nahi karib 45min tak mera phn waiting pe dal ka babu aur amit baatey kar rahe the...maine amit ka number milaya wo number v busy ja raha tha...maine sms kia fir v kuch response nahi mila so ...i was so much angry and kch kuch bol dia amit ko ...jab mai babu se is baat pe baatey kar he raha tha ki babu ne bola ki wo baat nahi karna chahti hai...aur phn kat di
....mai avi kuch sochta ki ek mere cell pe sms aya babu ka ki "relationship wid u was my biggest mistake i want break up"
mujhe aisa shock laga ki jaise mere sir se aasman aur niche se zameen nikal gai hai...i was completly crying...i was crying like a kid...iwent to roof and tried to call babu..there was no more alance in my phn to make a call...mai 5th floor se by stairs bhagte huye rote huye recharge karane gaya...shopkeeper v soch raha tha what happnd to me...mai bhagte huye 5th floor chadha...maine phn lagay aur mai boht ro raha tha...babu meri koi baat sunne ko taiyar nahi thi...then i decide to comit suicide...kuch v achha nahi lag raha tha dimag kam nahi kar raha tha...babu mai ye likhte huye us pal ko soch k ro raha hu...i love u babu....khair i was crying and crying only...i said ohk m going to jump from the roof and u want to listen how d way m going to die...there s no sandeep without u baby...babu start crying 2...c said "i love you babu"
m sorry
i love u babu
..i said dnt cry babu.... i cnt c u crying..m sorry i shouldn't treat like that....
After so many tears and sounds i got my babu bck i was happy at d end of the day....

"apko pa k dubara mehsus hua pyar kitna rangeen hota hai
jis takrar ko samjhte nahi wo takrar v haseen hoti hai
samajhne ka fer hai warna faslo k sath he to aasman aur zameen hoti hai"

socha na tha

socha na tha aisa
aap u milke bichar jaoge
sawar k meri duniya
u tanha chhor jaoge
bus k mere dil me
dhadkan meri ban jaoge
kaha gaye humey chhor k
u kab tak sataoge
ziddi boht hai hum v intezar karenge
jab tak aap nahi aaoge
socha na tha aisa
aap u humse dur jaoge


tadap raha hai dil mera
kab ise sukun dilaoge
khuli hui hai jo bahein meri
kab inme samaoge
jo v kiye the wadey sarey
kab inhe nibhaoge
hai intezar ankho me ab v
kab tak laut k aaoge
beh rahi hai ankho se anshu
kab tak inhe pilaoge
dekhe thhe jo sapne sath me
unhe nahi basaoge
gawah hai jo ye chand tarey
unhe kya bataoge
suni hai jo batein baharon ne
unhe kya sunaoge
intejar hai ankho me tab tak
jab tak nahi laut aaoge

tut gaya hu bikhar gaya hu
kya sametne nahi aaoge
thhe kabhi zigar ka tukda
kya hume bhul paoge
behad mohabbat karte hai hum
kabtak dur reh paoge
rahega ankho me intejar aapka
jab tak aap nahi aaoge
hai ankho me intezar
daud k aaoge siney se lag jaoge

.....-----sandeep kumar patel----.....

A Dream that never let me sleep.

***Sitaro ko chamkte na u dekha karo
ye to bus ankho ka dhokha hai
manzil samne hai agey badho
tumhe kisne roka hai



Besak dharti k is sabse samjhdar prani ki ye ek bohat badi nasamjhi hoti hai jo hum sitaro k piche bhagte rahte hai jo sitaro ko dekh k sochte hai unki lifestyle k bare me sochte hai aur kahi na kahi yahi sochte sochte samay nikal jata hai jab tak ek aur koi sitara chamkne lagta hai..mai v suru me aisa sochta tha but thanx to puja jisne mujhe boht kuch sochne pe le k aayi..puja ye besak ek ladki he hai..ye ladki ek aisi khubsurat hawa thi jo ayi to kai khusio k sath aur sari khusia mujhe de k sari burai le k ud gai..but haan meri babu ne mujhe us aise sapne se bahar nikala jisme mai ji raha tha ek aisa sapna jisme mai sochta tha ki hum sab kuch hasil kar sakte hai ...besak hum sab kuch hasil kar sakte hai par sapno me nahi haqiqat me v..jab tak ye hawa mere sath thi tab tak is hawa ki mithi sansanahat me mai kuch sun nahi paya jab tak ye hawa mere ankho k samne thi mai apni ankho se nahi dekh paya ..khair kaise ek insan itna bada sitara ban jata hai ki uski har ek chamak diamond se v beskimti ban jata hai ki media me samaj me aur dhire dhire pure sansar me wo chamkne lagta hai aur dusre dekh dekh k zindgi bita dete hai..fir dil me baat ati hai kya wo insan kisi dusre lok se to hai nahi wo v hai to hamare saman fir aisa kyo..kya bhagwan ka kuch khas prem hai usse...dimag man le duniya man le is baat ko besak mera dil hargij kabhi nahi man sakta. akhir god aisa kaise kar sakta hai bilkul nahi hum sab god k santan hai ..har insan ko god ne yaha ek khas maksad k tahat bheja hai..to fir hai kya wo maksad?..kya sach me hum kabhi sitara nahi ban sakte? kya unhe god ka kuch khas aashirwad hai? ek maa apne 2 beto me barabar ka prem rakhti hai to fir puri duniya to usi bhagwan ki santan hai to kya bhagwan apne santano me sabse barabar prem nahi karta? kya ek aam insan puri zindgi aam insan he reh sakta hai.? ek aam insan aur ek sitare ne fark kya hai aur kis wajah se hai?

jis din har insan in sawalo ka jawab khud se mang lia us din wo har insan sitara banne k rah pe nikal jayega...besak mai kuch v nahi hu but fir v maine in sawalo k jawab khud se manga tha aur maine suruwat ki hai..aur ye meri suruat ka ek part ye v hai.


jhukta hai khuda v mohabbat jo parwan hoti hai
chamkte hai sitare jaha hai wo kuch nahi
dharti ki parchai he to aasman hoti hai
paiso k kharidi khusio me kuch nahi
pyar k 2 pal me he to muskan hoti hai
rab ki duniya me rab ko dhundha to kuch nahi
khuda se milne k liye he to ramzan hoti hai

a novel by -kumar sandeep patel

Dear friends,
mai sandeep kumar patel ek animation ka student hu.jaha tak mujhe yaad hai jab se maine hos sambhala hua hai mujhe sayri karna poems likhna behad pasand tha par kabhi v maine ise apna proffesion nahi banaya.zindgi ek bohat khubsurat tohfa hai kudrat ka is tohfe me hume kafi chiz milti hai. bohat sare log judte hai humse aur dur ho jate hai. bohat sare riste judte hai humse aur tut jate hai.aise me kai baar dil rota hai tadapta hai dil jab koi apna humse dur ho jata hai.mere sath v kuch aisa he hua infact ye sab ek samay ka khel hota hai jo hamari parishha leta hai.kai baar hum pichhe reh jate hai but mera mannna hai "there is always a hope just break the rope"
.books likhna kabhi mera koi khas hobby nahi raha hai.fir v maine ye book likhna suru kia . ye book mere dil k sabse karib us sakhs ko dedicate hai jo sath na ho k v har pal mere siney me dhadkti hai.is book ko likhne k piche meri dil ki ek mansa hai jo mai purey duniya k logo k dilo tak pahuchana chahta hu.

"do pal ka sath hamara do pal ka pyar hamara
junun hai abki bari ki yaad rakhega duniya pyar hamara"

"chaho jise chaho use is kadar
ki baki na rahe dil me koi kasar
rab ko ho ehsas ibadat ho is kadar
rab v diwana ho jaye
us pathhar pe ibadat ka ho aisa asar"






"babu this book is dedicated to you"
i love you always from the soul of my heart

...___------___...kumar sandeep patel

from the soul of my heart

tham kar hatho ko chale the pane manzil apne pyar ki...
tham kar hatho ko chale the pane manzil apne pyar ki...
pa na sake apna mukam ban gaya pyar mera saman ek bazar ki...
pyar me hamesa hoti hai haar hai ye reet sansar ki..

chahat meri kya itni kam thi
jo mai ye bazi har gaya
ye meri ankhe hai jo nam thi
jo dekh na paya unki betabi ko

ek pal me baat ye apne keh dia
mil nahi sakte hum dur jao tum humse
kyo dil me apne jagah dia
kahte hai hum ji nahi payenge kasam se

nahi koi is duniya me jisne mujhe kosa nahi hai
ek aap he hai jinhe mujhpe pyar aya
aur ab ja rahe ho keh k ki bharosa nahi hai




i love you baby--------****kumar sandeep patel****

mohabbat ek musibat(poem)

Aye is duniya ko banane wale
kaisi ye teri rachna hai
khuli ankho se dikhata jhalak manjil ki
band ankho me wahi ek sapna hai
de dia ek sabd pyar yaha
yaha pyar me to bus dil ka rona hai
maut ko gale lagakar ab to chain se sona hai
hasi ati hai teri is duniya ko dekh k
jaha ek samaj k samne pyar bauna hai
aye is duniya ko banane waleteri duniya me kya yahi hona hai

tune badla kal ko tune badla aaj ko
kya nahi badal sakta is samaj ko
jo pyar ko paap samajhta hai
nahi dikta use tadap is dil ki
halat banakar hasta hai
aye murliwale pyar to tune v kia tha
aaj jaisi halat ko kya tune jia tha
hai jo ye misaley mohabbat ki inka yaha kya kam tha
paap hai pyar yaha to tajmahal banwane ka kya kam tha
hum to teri kathputalia hai
nacha jaise nachana hai
aye is duniya ko banane wale kya khub ki teri rachna hai

dil ki dhadkan me v milawat hai
pyar jo kar lia to maut ki aahat hai
tod dia jata hai dil yaha
jisme kisi ki chahat hai
bina dil k kaha ab rahat hai
dard ye dil ka nahi ab sahna hai
teri is fareb ki duniya me hume nahi rahna hai
palat panne akhbaro ki
har roj yahi hona hai
premi jode ne khudkhusi ki
har akhbar ka kona hai
nafrat se bhari is duniya me amrit me v zahar he pina hai
teri banai duniya me hume nahi jina hai
kuch nahi kar sakta tu patti jo ankho pe pehna hai
aye is duniya ko banane wale teri duniya ka kya khub kehna hai


..............****KUMAR SANDEEP PATEL****..............

ishq ek ibadat(poem)

Ishq to khuda ki ibadat hai
ishq me khelna to aaj logo ki aadat hai
kabhi dhadkta tha dil sirf mehbub k liye
ab ishq me kaha wo chahat hai
alag he duniya basti thi mehbub ki bahoo me
un bahoo me ab kaha wo sukun wo rahat hai
kabhi hua karti thi jine ka maksad ye ibadat
ab ishq me kaha wo chahat hai

pahle hote the jhagre fir hota tha pyar
ab to sab pahle ho jata bachta sirf takrar
pahle iqrar se pahle sochta tha dil kai baar
ab bas dekhte he kar dete iqrar
ban gaya hai bus khel ye sab kuch kaha bacha hai pyar
ye ibadat khuda ki ban gaya hai fareb ka bazar
sachha chahne walo ki to bas samat hai
thukra dete pyar unka unhe kaha rahat hai
kabhi hua karti thi mohabbat ek junun
ab is mohabbat me kaha wo chahat hai


padha panne sare gita se kuran ka
apnaya ishq ko sabne
hai ye itihas is jahan ka
mohabbat rah gaya hai bus itihas is jahan ka
galat ho gai ye baat ishq khuda ki ibadat hai
ishq me khelna to ab logo ki aadat hai
hai aaj v ibadat khuda ki karne wale
dil ko unki kaha raahat hai
dilo sse khelna to aaj logo ki aadat hai

.......****KUMAR SANDEEP PATEL****.......

kash tum hote hamare humsafar!!!!!!-(poem)

Hum tumhe chahte hai is kadar
labjo me nahi kar sakte bayan ki kis kadar
chahat ne tumhari firaya dar badar
dil rota raha aankho se bahte rahe zahar
dil k aarzoo dil me rah gaye
sochta hu kash tum hote hamare humsafar

gujarti thi hamari galiyo se chupke se dekha karte the
dekh k aahey bharte par kahne se darte the
dil me bus tum rahte hum tumpe he marte the
tumhra masoom chehra aur katilana najar
dekhta rahu tumhe wo pal jaye thahar
sochta hu kash tum hote hamare humsafar

tumhari adaye aur andaz tumhara ghayal kar jati thi
khyalo me rum rahte sapno me v najar ati thi
dekh k tumko chehre pe ati khusio ki lahar
dil ka hal bata na paya dhundhta raha pahar
kyo keh na paya dil ki baat kaisa tha wo dar
sochta hu kash tum hote hamare humsafar

khilkhila k hasna tera dhahti thi kahar
bijliya v girati thi teri kajrari najar
kitni mohabbat tumse keh na paya lagta tha dar
bit gaye wo din chal raha zindgi ka safar
yaad ate ho tum ....kas hote tum hamare humsa

......****KUMAR SANDEEP PATEL****........

pyar aisa he hota hai (breaking my heart)23june 2010

history repetead again......
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hamari zindagi to sisey k jaisi hai..
ek baar fir aaya wo pal jo na maine chaha
har gaya fir mera pyar
boht roya par kaya karta meri kismat he aisi hai..
.....

kaise kare hum bayan kitni mohabbat hum karte hai
kho na du apko sirf isi bat se darte hai
apke khusio k liye hum sarey aansu pitey hai
jine ko o sab kuch yaha hum to apke khusio me jitey hai
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hamesa ki tarah aaj bhi mai subah utha aur academy gaya.class khatm hone k bad lab me baitha doso k sath practice kar raha tha.aaj hamara car modeling suru hua tha..aur isi pe practice kar rahe the..maine socha ki friday tak mai ti pura car design karke sir k samne rakh dunga.aur mai apna best dena chahta tha.pata nahi kyo mera dil boht bekrara ho raha tha pata nahi kyo man nahi lag raha tha...maine socha babu se baat karta hu maine lab se bahar nikal k babu ko phone kia aur boht achhe se baat hui.thoda baat karne k baad babu ne bola ki use sona hai maine bola thik hai ja k si jaiye.babu sone chali gai.par fir v mera dil ghabra raha tha .man nahi lag raha tha.mai lab se bahar nikal gaya aur ghar aa gaya.kuch dhang se khane ka man v nahi ho raha tha fir v thoda khaya.aur fir socha ki babu se ek bar baat kar leta hu.

3baje k aas pas time ho raha tha..maine babu ko phone kia babu se thoda bat kia fir babu ne fir bola ki sone jana hai maine roka aur fir babu ne puchha ki " babu agar mujhe apne parents and apne pyar me kisi ek k choose karna padey to kise choose karna chahiye" maine bola ki ye kaisa sawal hai dono ki apni ahmiyat hai..aur pyar me koi tulna thode na hoti hai..pyar to pyar hota hai. fir babu ne bola ki agaar apko choose karna pada to ...maine bola mai kisi ko v nahi chhor sakta mai dono k le aunga dono k bagair nahi g sakta..maine ek baar babu ko promise kiya tha ki jab unhe kisi ek ko choose karna pade to wo apne parents ko choose karey..to maine unhe bol dia ki apne parents ko choose kijiyega,

babu ne bola apne mera kaam asan kar dia mujhe aaj ek decision karna tha..maine bola mai samjha nahi ...then babu ne bola ki unhone aaj maa ko sab bata dia hamre barey me aur unki maa ne mana kar dia hai aur kabhi na baat karne ki kasam v di hai....

mai rone laga ....
babu i love you pleasse mujhe chhor k mat jao...
mai us bachhe k jaisa ro raha tha jisey uski maa use chhor k ja rahi hai...
mai bilkul akela mehsus kar raha tha...mai ro raha tha fir v koi samjhne ko nahi tha
babu v rone lagi ....

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ya khuda ye teri kaisi reet hai
ro rahe hai do pyar karne wale
haar raha hai hamara pyar
aur tu kahta hai pyar me har pyar ki jeet hai...
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kya kami hai hamare pyar me jo hum mil nahi sakte
kaun sa bagiya hai tere pyar ka
jisme hamare pyar k ful khil nahi sakte
kyo banai he aisi duniya
jisme pyar karne wale ji nahi sakte
....

mai apne babu ko rote huye kabhi nahi dekh sakta maine bola babu mat ro but babu ro rahi thi.babu kahne lagi maine apke life ko spoil kar dia...but us pagli ko kya pata wo mera pyar hai wo meri jaan hai mera sansar hai mera sab kuch hai usne to meri diniya basai hai jisme mai aur babu ki dher sari pyare pyare pal hai..maine khud ko thda sambhala aur bola ki babu aap jaisa chahte ho waisa hoga..pls aap mat ro ...fir maine bola babu ab aap hamse dur jaogi to hum pura bikhar jayenge please babu hum koi aur rasta dhundh lenge par aap mujhe chhor k naho jao hum mar jayenge apke bagair ..hum dono kafi der tak rote rahe .maine bola babu kya ek bar hum mil sakte hai. babu ne bola nahi kabhi nahi.babu ne mujhe kasam de di mai kabhi hamre barey me unke parents se koi baat nahi karenge...babu apne parents ko hurt nahi karna chahti hai...aisa boht kum log hai is duniya me jo apne parents ki itni kadar karte hai jo unhe hurt nahi karna chahte...mai v babu ki is soch ki kadar karta hu.
mai kya kar sakta tha kuch nahi mai ab us insaan k jaisa ho gaya jisne boht sapne dekhe aur unhe sach karne ka hosla v hai par apne pyar k samne jhuk gaya.
maine fir bola ki babu ek bar mil lo kuch dena baki rah gaya hai ....babu ne fir mana kar dia aur rone lagi ...amien socha thoda hasa du babu ko kyoki hum log kafi tym se sirf ro rahe the...maine fir bola babu mil lo pagal warna hum us top ka kya karnge jo humne apke liye kharida tha...aur pata nahi maine to ye baat thoda situation sahi karne ko bola par mai khud ko nahi sambhal paya aur fut fut k rone laga...maine babu k liye ek top kharida hua hai jo mai hamre anniversary pe dena chahta tha jo ki 29th aug ko hai...maine bola babu hamra koi v sapna sach ho na paye ek sapna o sach hone do jo mai har rat ko dekhta hu ki apna 1 year anniversary apke sath manae ka uske bad apna anniversary mai akele mana lunga..fir babu raji hui...wo boli ki thik k ahi only last time uske baad dono alag ho jayenge....maine bola thik hai..fir phine ka balance 1hr baat karne k bad khatm ho gaya..
maine shyam bhai k phn se call kia to bla blnc khatm ho gaya 2 min bad call karta hu babu ne bola rahne do ab saam ko baat karte hai..
mai uske baad rota raha ....ek to garmi ka mausam aur dilli ka garmi jaan le raha tha mai rote rote kab so gaya pata nahi chala...
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bichhar gaye jo hum to bichharne ka gum nahi
apse jusi yadein apke hone k ehsas se kam nahi
khus rahna ap zindgi k har mod pe
kya hua jo apke zindgi me hum nahi
""""""""""""""""
i love yo my jaan
i love yo so muc mera babu
apke bina hum ji nahi sakte
you my love life everything.

i will miss you always

pyar aisa he hota hai-(again in patna)

yes
next day after diwali it was 16th oct there was my dr uncle we aal respect him lot.
he said to me to go to patna to bring her daughter.unki beti binnu di ki sadi patna chitkohra k pas hua hai...to unhone bola ki chhath me ana chahti hai to unko lana tha...i was happy again but bad news tha ki babu apne ghar mahnar ja chuki thi..i felt bad..i was planning to do something .then dr uncle ne bola ki subah saptkranti se chale jao 2 baje tak patna pahuch jaoge...fir maine socha ki mai ab mahnar jaunga...aaj tak gaya nahi kuch idea nahi kaise jana hai fir v socha ki jaunga
.maine kisi ko nahi bola ki mai manar v jaunga...bus aditya ko bola ki wo byk le k hajipur aa jayega 2 ka aaspas aur hum log mahnar jayenge.11 k karib train muz pahuchi fir prashant ka phn aa gaya uska ghar muz.. me hai wo bola milne ko...ab mana v nahi kar sakta tha...gaya uske ghar aur fir thoda baith k bola ki mujhe bus stand chhor do hajipur jana hai.aur aditya ko v bol dia ki wo patna se nikal jaye...sab kuch ekdum plan k anusar hota gaya. idhar mai hajipur pahucha udhar adi v hajipur pahuch gaya..dhup thi and dhul v ud raha tha...kuch v idea nahi ki mahnar kaise jana hai...ksis se puch k age badha thoda age fir kise se puch k mahnar wala road pe aa gaya.fir kya..andhi ki raftar se byk chal rahi thi...mai nahi adi chala raha tha 85km/hr ki sped se but ab road tuta futa milne laga...speed thi 15km/hr..raste me gujrta tym sochta ki mera babu v aise he inhi rasto se jati hogi...betuka sa think tha but dil ko achha lag raha tha..thoda age ja ka adi ne mujhe handle thama di. mai helmet pahan k chalana pasand kia kyoki bade bade bal the udte tym bekar ho jate..aur meri speed thi 35km/hr...because mujhe babu se milna tha..jaise taise uske gao mahnar pahuche 50min me.40km k aas pas distance thi.ab gaon dekha to laga ki ago nahi sahar hai kaise dhundhege uska ghar....but koi nahi hanuman g hai na..jaisa ki babu aksar bolti ki bank of baroda hai uske ghar k upar and state bank of india v hai pas me to wo he dhundhne lage...aur usne kavi tata sky ka v bola tha to mai to ghar k upar ka antena dekh raha tha...babu ka ghar mil gaya sab kuch waisa jaisa bola usne ghar k pas me uska factory and ek scooter sab dikh gaya.

ab to pyas v lag gaya tha thoda age ja k ek jagah lassi p and thanda v pia fir muh dho k uske ghar ki taraf jane lage . uske ghar k samne se gadi mod li...use phn karne k himmat nahi hua..socha ki kahi use bura lag jayega..adi bolta raha mai mana kar gaya and fir to byk to jaise ud raha tha and uda raha tha mai ..almost 90km/hr. mai khud se naraj ho raha tha..ppl were loking toward us on road ...achanak se samne se ek truck aa raha tha and mai ek truck ko overtake kar raha tha dipper v maine galat wala jala dia mujhe left jana tha and maine right wala dipper jala dia truck wala samjha ye left jayega wo teji se left ki taraf ane laga ...mujhe khud samajh nahi aya humlog kaise bach gaye sayad 1 sec ka v fasla nahi tha. main pura kap raha tha and adi was shouting at me. maine byk rok d thi and maine ohn lagaya babu ko use maine bola ki mai mahnar aya tha..pahle use believe nahi hua ki mai mahnar kaise aa sakta hu..maine bola ki maine ghar v dekha use fir bel nahi hua maine sab bola waise jaisa usne pucha tab ja k use yakin hua..fir wo boli avi kaha ho maine bola mhnar se 15km dur wo boli mile kyo nahi mai bola maine phn nahi kia apko bura lag jata ..fir thoda baat karkr adi ne byk sambhala wo mujhe ab byk nahi dene wala tha.aur hum patna pahuch gaye.
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dukh tha is bat ka ki mil na sake hum
pahuch gaye apke ghar to na milne ka kya gum
abhi to ye pyar ki suruwat hai
apke pyar me to mar mitenge hum
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tarane bikhar jaye raag wahi rahega
pyar ho dil me jiske dard v wahi sah sakega
komal nahi kanto pe v chalega
samjho na hume khota sikka
ye sikka v ek din uchlega
chandni raat ka intazar nahi hume
ye sitara andhkar me bhi chamkega
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--------------------------i love you baby----------------------------------- The Animator
***kumar sandeep patel***

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pyar aisa he hota hai....

Itni hasrat hai tumhe pane ki humne khud ko badal dia....badal denge us jamane ko v jo rokega hume tumhe pane se.............



This Story is dedicated to my love....
Its a real story it directly belongs to me...


ujar jata asiyana apno k bichhar jane se..aur rahne ko wo ghosla nahi milta
pa lo sabkuch agar pyar bichhar jaye to jine ka wo hosla nahi milta

i love you baby....
dont leave me ever i will nt b alive anymore


hi,
mere barey me aap sab dashboard pe padh chuke hai....par kuch aisa hai meri zindgi se judi jiske bagair ye sab sirf sab hai sabkuch nahi



pyar to sab karte aur sabdo me bayan kar dete hai
hamara kuch aisa ki humne to thik se iqrar v nahi kia
phul to sab pahli mulakat me dete hai
humne to unhe phul ka didar v nahi hone dia
wo to itni komal aur khubsurat hai ki ful v sarma jate
isliye humne phulo ko badnam nahi hone dia


yes my baby...its all only for you

ab ye mat sochna ki sare sabd kahi se copy kia hai ye sab dil se nikla aur bus apke liye nikla hai
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ek pyari si ladki is gandi si duniya me behad ajib tarike se mili....
besak ek time aisa tha jab mai ye sochta tha ki pyar jasi koi chiz nahi hoti par wo kahte hai na...jis se jitna dur jao wo utna hamare pas ata hai...rab ki v aisa koi yojna thi
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suruwat ek dosti se hui jo pyar me badalne me boht tym laga iski wajah ki pyar ka ehsas v boht der se hua ....besak pyar pahle hume he hua jab hume is baat ka ehsas hu tab unhe ye manjur nahi tha kyoki us tym hamare bich duriya ho gai thi...
hume v ehsas jab hua jab hum hamesa uske bare me he sochte....
man nahi lagta tha
kisi v chiz me nahi
isme mera pura sath dia mere dost romi , mangal pandey,anurag,pinku ye mere wo dost hai jinhone us tym pe pura sath dia pine me aur zindgi ko hawa me uchhal sabkuch bhul jane me...roj hamara expense ho gaya tha atleast 500rs ka takriban 2 mahino me humne 20k rs gum ko bhulane me kharch kiye subah beer se saam whisky se khatm hoti thi...........isme baki ka koi kasur nahi.....unhe iske liye raji v maine he kia tha

ha par unhe pata nahi tha ki unke is dost k sath aisa kuch hua hai aur maine unhe pata v nahi lagne dia....dost hai meri wajah se unhe tens kyo
and unke sath tym dete to achha lagta tha...warna unki boht sikayat hoti thi
padhai kahi gum ho gai....koi project kuch v dhang se nahi kia infact kuch kia he nahi...pura din south x me romi k pg pe gujarta and then raat ghar pe
...boht bura tym tha


fir ek din ek unknown number se call aya ....maine pick kia koi awaz nahi ayi...uske thoda pahle pawan ka phn aya tha and network prblm thi mujhe laga ye number v pawan ka he hoga...par mai galat tha maine call back kia to kisi ne phone uthaya maine hello bola but koi awaz nahi ayi..ha jab sans lene ki ahat suna wo kuch aisa tha jo mai janta pehchanta tha jisne dil ko bola ye mera babu hai...(i always called her babu) maine bola babu fir v awaz nahi ayi fir maine bola babu mai janta hu ye aao ho apko meri kasam kuch bolo fir jo awaz ayi i cnt explain in words dil ko kitna sakun pahucha...dil ko bohat achha laga..usne bola babu..aur wo ro padi...

unke aahat ne mujhe pura tod dia
roye jo wo waha yaha mera dil ro dia
usdin hamari baat 49days k bad hui thi
mere liye 3 magical word kam pad rahe the ijhar karne k liye mai nahi kar paya

i remember it was 14th august 2009 it was krishna janmashtmi....today when i talkd to babu then c said aaj jo mai mangu bhagwan se wo mil jayega....maine god se babu manga....it was 28th august rat ko 11 baje k karib babu ka msg aya msg kuch aisa tha

hey


sweetheart





i




love





you


kuch nahi puchna so jao kal bat karenge



..... then mujhe believe nahi hua

maine tabhi reply kia msg sahi me tha ya majak then i got replied ki its just a joke yaar...so jao


ha but jo v tha dil ne bola ki kal to pupose kar he du

hamri baat phn pe he hoti bcoz c s in patna and i was in delhi



next day in morning
i send her a msg in persian...one of my best friend is student of persian from j.n.u to usi se puchha ki i love you ko persian me kaise bolte hai...maine use persian me msg type kar k bheja tha....and ye v pucha ki iska matlab mujhe sam tak pata kr k batana.....at evening ab ye aisa tym tha jab mujhe purpose karna tha...aisa lag raha tha ki xam ka result ane wala hai...bajrangbali ka name le k maine i love you bola 29th aug 2009 time 8pm k karib


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agar paya jo pyar tumhara to samjhunga ki khuda ki khdai pa li
inkar jo hua to to lagega ki zindagi se judai pa li...
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usne thodi der bad i love u 2 bola....ye kuch aisa tha ki sirf feel lar sakte hai bayan nahi,,,,,
ye kuch aisa tha ki sagar k lahro pe tair rahe hai khule aasman ke niche jaise ki au kuch hasrat nahi zindagi me sab kuch mil gaya
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apka jawab sunkar sansey tham gai aur ankhe nam hui
ye sabse hasin pal tha..kho du sab kuch to v koi gam nahi
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i had a busy shedule due to few projects ...so didnt got tym to meet her but i were planning to go to patna , and finally a date decided that was 13th october.


due to festival like chhath and diwali i was unable to take ticket so i was depend on tatkal ticket that i had to cash early morning on 10th oct. on this day i woke up early all credit goes to my sweetheart wo call me and remind me that i have to make ticket..finally i was a lucky 1 who got ticket in rush of chhath puja and diwali...credit goes to ngpay who helped me to cash it throug my cell phone.

on d next day that was 11th october i went to bought something to gift her .....it was my first date..i wanted to bought an ipod so i choosed nehru place as it is largest electronic market so i went thr wid my sweet friend prashant shrivastawa.i was seraching apple nano but it was my hard luck that it was out of market ...so i was thinking to get smthing diff.. suddenly i saw an archies gallary thr ...i move thr while entering my eyes spot a ganesh g having metal temple like structure and along wid a watch on d top it suited my mind and i took dis .



........next day it was 12th oct

maine apna sara lam khatm kia and station nikal gaya mujhe chhorne romi and alok v sath aye .
station pahuch k maine romim ko 100rs dia ki ghar chale jao leki usne nahi lia romi ne bola" rakhe raho tumhe kam ayega waise v tumhare pa paise v nahi hai." it was true mere pas bilkul v paise nahi the wo to idhar udhar disto se 2000rs lia tha.

train apne samay se khuli 5.30pm pe(sampoorna kranti)

patna me mere boh dost hai but maine apne langotia dost jo mera padosi v hai use phn kia thawo to bilkul time pe pahuch gaya tha...


###NOW IN PATNA ON 13th oct2009###

patna pahuch k maine babu ko call kia time was near 8am by my watch.
wo us tym bhi sorahi thi aur usne soye huye bola babu pahuch gaye maine bola haa pahuch gaya...



fir mai nikal gaya banti k rum pe jo ki krishna aprtment k pas me tha..


waha pahuch k maine adi ko phone kia...beacause mujhe pata nahi tha ki amrapali restraunt kaha hai..mai fresh ho k adi ka wait kar raha tha fir adi aya and uske sath nikal gaya raste me archies se bracelet v lia...


i was 30 min late from decide time it means i made my babu to wait for 30 min in restraunt...adi took me at d gate of restraunt that was in pant bhawan boring road. he just shake hand wid babu and go away.

it was 11.30am and now only me and babu was in restraunt ....the first thing c said to me "journey me koi problem to nahi hui na" i said no
i was stupid that i sat infront of her not beside of her.
c said" ap waha kyo baithe ho idhar aa jao. i was completly nervous.fir mai uske bagal me ja k baitha.

then we talk little bit.. and i was doing comedy thr that day i realised yes m stupid really that m doing comedy on my first date..we were in restraunt for 2 hours then i asked her where to go next i said for zoo but there was not much time that i had to go ramnagar same day in evening. c had so many gifts for me when i looked toward my gift i was feeling bad ya but its k chalta hai.then we move to temple then cafe thr we spent best part of d first date ..c was in my arms and no moment can b better than dis...i was feeling something amazing.my friends were calling me and diturbing that time .

waise saam ko banti ko v mere sath he ghar jana tha and maine bola tha saam ko party kar k ghar chalenge .so we end our first date wid beatifull moments .adi was around me near cafe. after babu left cafe i called them and decide to gave them party in rest ...they said they want to go in bar so i took thm to madhuan bar that is in front of pant bhawan ...we went thr and had beers ,,whisky etc except adi who took only cold drink..



then we moved for ramnagar . maine hanuman madir k pas se auto reserve kia hajipur tak aur fir mai aur banti nikal pade...befor i leave patna when i talked 2 babu c said it was best day of her lyf and it was mine also.


hajipur pahucha to pata chala ki train nikal chuki hai .3 ghante bad ek train hai. it means ki hume 3 ghanta wait karna tha...

yes i was missing something so much...what was that????????

that was my sweet babu...i was missing her lots
sochta raha kash wo pal wahi tham jata kash aaj sam nahi hui hoti kash....!!!!!!!!

lekin wo khubsurat pal jo bitaya ab yad ban chuki thi jo reh reh k dil me guggudi karti reh reh k mai akele muskura padta..
ha ye sab kuch aisa he tha ...maine sirf litti aur coldrink k alawe aur kuch nahi lia hoga aur khyalo me khoya khoya 3 ghante bit gaye pata v nahi chala....

ek khubsurat pal k bad ek muskil wala samay mera wait kar raha tha iska thoda thoda ehsas mujhe ho raha tha....kuch is tarah ki 11baje ki last train thi muzaffarpur se jo mujhe 4baje subah tak ramnagar pahucha deti lekin ye sab namumkin sa tha ab
aur agar aisa nahi hua to 4ghanta mujhe wait karna tha....

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jis baat ka tha dar wahi bat hona tha
abhi tak jo khyalo me soya tha
ab 4 ghante ankhe khol khade khade sona tha
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bhukh v lag rahi thi mai aur banty station se bahar nikale aur rest.. dhundh rahe the muskil se ek dhaba dikha jo khula tha waha gaye to khane me sirf non veg tha ...aur kuch nahi humne wahi order de dia..jab bill pay karne gaya to dekha ki iske bad mere pocket me sirf 3rs bache the banti k pas to wo v nahi tha..

fir station pahuche...garmi v lag raha tha and ab to pyas v lagne laga tha ...platform pe stalls pe cold drinks k bottles dekh k dil karta par paise nahi the...pani ka bottle v nahi kharid sakte the...platform pe he kahi nalka paya aur hath se pia ...jaise taise tym kat raha tha...fir 2baje k karib phn aya and my jaan asked "pahuch gaye" i said no we rs still waiting for a train at muz.. we talked little bit then i said her to go to sleep.

samay kat gaya aur fir 4 baje k karib train khuli aur fir subah j k ghar pahucha.

##NEXT DAY ##(14th october)
this was d day which hurtd me lot

yes my baby this day hurtd me lot...i remember when i talked to u i missd that charm that i felt a day be4. jab mai apne pyare se pal k bare me baat karna chaha to unka response kuch aisa tha ki kal ka tym unke zindagi ka sabse bura daur tha.mai kuch bolna chahta to wo kahti ki unhe is topic pe koi baat nahi karni .
jis din ko hum dono ne apne zindagi ka sabse yadgar aur khubsurat din karar dia tha kaise wo din itna bura ho sakta hai ...ye soch k mai sach me pura pagal ho raha tha...i was crying..koi nahi tha mujhe samjhne wala..kuch v achha nahi lag raha tha wo v jab ki kal diwali thi...i was crying infront of hanuman g i requested him pls hanuman g mera babu mujhe wapis dila do.
today it was diwali and babu is d first who woshed me diwali...i was happy mera babu wapis aa gaya...use uske dost ne samjhaya ki kuch v galat nahi tha...pyar aisa he hota hai..i was happy

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dhal jaye suraj bhikar jaye ye jaha
mere dil me hamesa rahega wo khubsurat sama
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