Break.......up!!!!!!!!!!!!??????

pal ye pal wo pal ata jata hai...
thodi khusia thoda gam de jata hai
ye jo dil hai ye to bus dil hai
na hona ho jo wo v ho jata hai.....

Besak zindgi me ups and down chalta rehta hai...aaj 2pal li khusi hai to kal 2 pal ka gam hona lajmi hai...but is tarike se aisa nahi socha tha
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its 12december...babu said me that c is going to cafe..main us din jnu ja raha tha kuch kam se to pahle maine mana kar dia maine kuch socha v nahi aur mana kar dia...iske pichhe ek wajah aur v thi ki mai babu ko le k thoda unsecure feel karta tha..ye ek normal behave hota hai ladko me..aisa mere v sath tha kyoki babu k ladke kuch dost the ..aur mujhe to ye v pata tha ki unme se ek ladka amit kolkata ka rehne wala tha jisne babu ko purpose v kia tha..to aisa pata tha to mere dimag me boht batey chalti rehti halaki mai galat tha...galat tha kyoki mere dimag me bekar ki baat ati...kahi maine babu ko kho dia to..
so maine babu ko cafe jane se mana kar dia tha...pura din hum isi topic pe ladte rahe ki maine use kyo jane nahi dia...mai kahta tha ki apko jane ki kya jarurat hai ...aur wo bolti jana hai...waise wo net pe jati v thi to amit se online baat karti thi ye wajah mujhe use jane nahi de raha tha.finally thoda sulah hua he tha ..
fir...
fir............
mujhe jnu jana tha to mai socha ki ab sab kuch normal ho chuka hai..but i was wrong...things were same kam ya jyada kamowes waisa he sab kuch tha...pura din jab v baat ki to pyar missing laga...mai galat tha muje is kadar possessive nahi hona chahiye tha..saam ko mai jab baat kar raha tha to maine babu ko bola ya to 15sms roj kijiye ya mahine me ek do bar aap 30min baat kar lia kijiye agar apka dost hai to..thodi behas hui thi fir sab kuch normal ho gaya..maine phn rakh dia kyoki babu ne bola ki use khana khane jana hai...raat k 9bajne ko the aur is tym pe khana khane ka tym ho jata hai...mere dil me kuch tha jo mai us din maine phn rakhne k baad wapis call kia to phn waiting pe ja raha tha...aur kuch min nahi karib 45min tak mera phn waiting pe dal ka babu aur amit baatey kar rahe the...maine amit ka number milaya wo number v busy ja raha tha...maine sms kia fir v kuch response nahi mila so ...i was so much angry and kch kuch bol dia amit ko ...jab mai babu se is baat pe baatey kar he raha tha ki babu ne bola ki wo baat nahi karna chahti hai...aur phn kat di
....mai avi kuch sochta ki ek mere cell pe sms aya babu ka ki "relationship wid u was my biggest mistake i want break up"
mujhe aisa shock laga ki jaise mere sir se aasman aur niche se zameen nikal gai hai...i was completly crying...i was crying like a kid...iwent to roof and tried to call babu..there was no more alance in my phn to make a call...mai 5th floor se by stairs bhagte huye rote huye recharge karane gaya...shopkeeper v soch raha tha what happnd to me...mai bhagte huye 5th floor chadha...maine phn lagay aur mai boht ro raha tha...babu meri koi baat sunne ko taiyar nahi thi...then i decide to comit suicide...kuch v achha nahi lag raha tha dimag kam nahi kar raha tha...babu mai ye likhte huye us pal ko soch k ro raha hu...i love u babu....khair i was crying and crying only...i said ohk m going to jump from the roof and u want to listen how d way m going to die...there s no sandeep without u baby...babu start crying 2...c said "i love you babu"
m sorry
i love u babu
..i said dnt cry babu.... i cnt c u crying..m sorry i shouldn't treat like that....
After so many tears and sounds i got my babu bck i was happy at d end of the day....

"apko pa k dubara mehsus hua pyar kitna rangeen hota hai
jis takrar ko samjhte nahi wo takrar v haseen hoti hai
samajhne ka fer hai warna faslo k sath he to aasman aur zameen hoti hai"